Give Yourself-Your Time

Sometimes you need to be alone. Take some time and going somewhere out there. To the place where you've never been. Meet new people. Meet strangers. Even foreigners. Feel the air, feel the sun shine your barefoot. It will open your eyes how beautiful your life without someone else. And found out that you are the one and only one who is determine your happiness.. You dont need someone else to make you happy, because you know precisely what makes you happy. Well, excluding God, of course. He knows you more than you know.

Do whatever you want. Eat whatever you want. Fulfil your life with laughs and tears. Laugh as louder as you can and cry until you get tired. Open your heart. Be grateful. Every pain and difficulties lead you to a wonderful journey of life and one day you will realize how wonderful your life is. Believe that your life might possibly more beautiful than others.

Talk to yourself. Talk to new people you met. Indulge yourself. Forget others even your loved one. Sometimes you need to put your ego  first. Well, they will do the same thing to you anyway. So no need to worry. If they know you well, then she/he will give you- me time.

Last but not least. Go to church and pray. He will do the rest. Release your pain. Tell your gratefulness. You will feel the difference after that. when you dont know what to do or where to run or no one to talk to. He will listen to you patiently. And it will be the best medicine, ever.

Sendu Merindu

Sendu merindu
Pilu
Hampa
Walau surya menyapa

Aku di sini
Menepi
Merangkai kata
Untuknya

Hati perih
Sukma merintih
Tahun berganti
Pedih tak juga pergi

Sendu merindu
Butir peluh jatuh
Meretas lepas
Tak henti

Aku tak tahu
Tapi aku merasa

Hello!

Hello Jello!

Well, it's been 9 months since the last time I wrote on this blog, dan dengan hal yang sama akhirnya terinspirasi kembali untuk menulis. I don't know why, but then it came up on my mind, I opened my sister's laptop because I just want to write. What I want to write on? I... just.. don't know. Yang jelas, setiap kali melihatnya, setiap itu juga timbul kembali rasa sedih dan kehilangan yang mengeruak. Dan hal tersebut selalu terlihat disaat sesuatu terjadi pada saya.

Beberapa kali pun saya bertanya pada diri saya. Why? But still, I just don't get the right answer. Or maybe I won't get the answer for the rest of my life. Sometimes we live on a mysterious way, right? Saya seakan bisa merasakan betapa sedihnya orang-orang yang mungkin ditinggalkannya dan saya seakan memposisikan ketika berada pada posisi tersebut: One day, you will loose someone you love.

Maybe it's because of your fault, maybe it's because of their fault, atau yaa memang karena itu yang Tuhan inginkan. Ketika kemudian Dia akan mengambil kembali apa yang ada pada kita. Ketika semua bermula pada rasa itu, mungkin semua harus berakhir dengan rasa yang sama. Ketika sebuah kata menjadi begitu bermakna. Ketika kata terucap menusuk sukma. Mencoba menerima tapi hanya pertentangan yang didapat.